Hourglass Running Out

 February 9, 2021,
When her Petition for Divorce arrived in Georgetown, TX...
The official filing date...
Friday or Saturday,
19 or so days later,
Her copy of the Waiver of Services form should have arrived...
Signed under notary...
I have no more obligation to show up in court...
Every necessary form has my legal signature...
By the beginning of April, everything should be officially over...
Another item in a large suitcase of bitter sweet memories...
No need to speak...
No need to meet face-to-face...
No need to continue some futile friendship to prove we are better people...
No need to observe each other moving on...
No more need to care...
I still need to get to know me, though...
Deleted all of those popular dating apps...
Not my thing...
I need to meet people
Face to face...
Sight, touch, taste, smell, sound...
I have to be in their presence in order to know them...
Trying to "get to know" a stranger via text is not my forte...
Sight, sound, smell, touch, taste...
In-person human interaction is where I shine...
Even now, I can feel the desire in some people's eyes...
Enough to know that a choice to remain unattached for a while will not last forever...
I am,
After all,
Despite my flaws,
A charming devil...
Intelligent, attractive, and, most importantly, 
Worthy of love...
Light streaming out of the cracks in my soul...
Warmth not a distant memory...
I feel love streaming in via satellite and cell towers...
I feel love from thousands of miles in all directions...
I am not alone...
None of us should go through these things alone...
Angels hold me up when I can't support myself...
Friends and family...
People who share treasured memories of intimate moments...
Sexual and nonsexual...
Romantic and platonic...
From birth to death...
I am still alive...
And I still want to be alive...
Every twist and turn is worthy of introspection...
Every moment is unique and memorable...
Appreciated...
The good and the bad...
It is valued,
These journeys to wisdom...