New Year's Day

 New Year's Day...
Didn't eat any black eyed peas for luck...
Didn't make any concrete resolutions...
Just rested...
Watched some movies...
Watched the countdown the night before...
Self-care...
Focused on what to do next...
Rent is paid...
Car insurance is paid...
Utilities are paid...
Wifi connected...
I have access to the outside world...
Bank holiday,
So most of the next steps will have to be made on Monday...
Vehicle inspection and registration...
Nuts and bolts...
Emotions are stable...
It's been years since I've felt anything close to that...
Decades, even...
Maybe never...
This just might be a new feeling...
The mini-apocalypse toddles along...
But the outside world has never had much impact on my inner world...
A lot of the recent moments have contained significant déjà-vu...
Like walking through a dreamscape...
Like walking in dream-state...
As if time runs in all directions,
Not just linear...
Not just forward...
Beyond logic...
Beyond emotion...
I don't believe in any religion's higher power,
But I can feel that everything is connected...
A thin veil between the here and the there that we can't normally see or feel...
I can feel it...
It feels like magic, even though it's just nature,
Physics, science...
Reality is mysticism...
Every moment has meaning...
Each moment a necessary piece of the unfinished, self-generating puzzle...