A darkness
sometimes settles over my brow
when I observe
the world around me…
A world of hypocrites
and manipulators…
People who are not being
their authentic selves
trying to portray a person
outwardly
that is in no way similar
to the heart of who
they really are…
Narcissists and the superficial…
I can feel the stares
and I meet their gaze
because I choose to be
exactly who it is that I am…
I can feel their judgement…
Sometimes I laugh inwardly
at their ignorance…
Sometimes I could burn the world
if I had that power…
There are some
flecks of gold,
some shards of diamond,
in the throng,
but they are few and far between…
It would seem…
I’d like to try
to give the benefit of the doubt
in my own judgement,
but I’ve been observing human behavior
for far too long
and I can see their motivations,
their greed and hubris…
The weakness and the ignorance…
I’ve trained myself
to look deeper than the surface…
So much deeper than the skin…
I’d be a Hell of a profiler,
because half of the time
I see the gears of the clock
grinding in someone else’s psyche,
every little broken tooth
desperately trying
to interlock through the dust
and the grease
and the grime…
Humans are dirty little creatures,
in general…
Often untrustworthy…
And you’d better watch your back,
because humans
are a human’s worst enemy…
I have fought the urge to isolate
throughout my life
because I sometimes can’t help
but to analyze people
when I watch them…
When I’m around them,
watching them interact
with well worn shallowness and self-interest…
People-watching can be entertaining,
but somewhat depressing
once you begin to make
certain connections…
Human behavior, while apparently unpredictable,
is actually extremely predictable...
Watching the news
and reading the news
is no different…
It’s as if the country’s id,
the darkness at the core
of that once shining beacon
of light,
has become the dominant force
for a time…
But…
As above, so below…
It is just a reflection of who we are…
We definitely do not have to be this way…
Well,
maybe most of us have no choice…
We come together in times of crisis
and can work well enough
together
to get certain common goals accomplished,
occasionally,
but, while there is compassion out there
in hidden pockets
and surprising places,
I could stand to observe a lot more
compassion and introspection
in the people around me
when I venture out into the public…
I know that we are literally animals,
not the “Crown of Creation”,
not some favorite of any God or Gods,
just primates with technological experience…
Cavemen doing cavemen things…
Scratching in the dust of the earth
for food and attention…
Wanting to be at the center of the Universe
while we are really
at its furthest edges,
likely, not even originally
from the area…
Speeding through space
and just got caught up
in the gravity…
Snagged on the grinding gears…
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