I’ve never loved anyone else in my life
the way I love this woman,
And who she carries inside of her...
Maybe it's just this moment...
The others and I
in the past
always had somewhat
to extremely
different goals…
Different ways of existing in the world…
Different moral upbringing and boundaries…
There were always fatal flaws
that caused the relationships to crash…
That ol’ blue screen of death…
(Did you turn it off,
and then turn it back on again?)
I’ve been intimate with friends
who are still my dear friends,
but the capital R “Relationships”,
well,
we never really
had anything in common
except for the sex…
They thought they could
mold me into something
that I was not,
my friends, they loved me as I was…
And, strangely, always had more in common with me
than the women I committed to...
Relationships are about love,
but they are also about common goals…
She and I
have common goals…
Common interest in raising this new being...
In some ways we are completely opposite,
our experiences and our
lives up until right now…
The surface things…
How we project our personas into the external world,
in the public eye...
Under the skin,
we think very much alike…
Synchronistic life details…
Similar traumas and past abuses...
We’re even simply biologically similar…
Similar ailments…
Similar aches and pains…
Our bodies are two separate versions
of the very same machine…
And everything seems to fit together
just right…
Despite any obstacles…
Any bumps in the road…
I know that no relationship
is perfect,
but, right now,
she seems so perfect…
There is work to be done
and
there are plans to be made…
There are more than enough
obstacles…
I will gladly face them for her and this child…
The timeline is a bit too
accelerated
for some people’s tastes,
I’m sure…
Onlookers might think
that we’re rushing into things…
Caught up in the whirlwind of emotions
that new love can bring…
But we know…
More certain than any irrational fears…
We know the broad strokes
of where we want to be…
The details will become more clear
as time goes on…
The “how” will fall into place…
We just know that this person has to be…
We are their home…
Some part of me must have known
before I even felt her lips
on my neck…
We had no choice…
It had to be…
Our pheromones reaching out to each other
and assuring our eventual bond…
Subliminal tendrils reaching into our minds
and drawing us closer…
Our bodies seemed to know
before our intellectual minds
became aware…
Deer in late fall…
Something in the air…
Resonance and pheromones…
Mother Nature moving the pieces
on the chessboard
like the Gods of Olympus
engineering the fates of men…
I don’t think either of us had much choice
in falling…
We were always supposed to be this person…
It took a lifetime for us to find each other,
not even knowing that we were looking…
We had things to do and to learn…
We had to grow into what we now are to each other…
Now we three will grow together...
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