Solo

 My apparent need to "save" people from themselves was/is projection...
I was trying to save myself...
I mistakenly thought I needed the "other piece" of my broken self...
That I needed someone else, a significant other, to feel complete...
That if I could convince the disillusioned that my love was real,
Then my love was real...
I was wrong...
I can only save myself...
I, alone, can choose to do that...
I do have support, some very good friends,
But I'm doing a lot of this work on my own,
By my own will to power
(Bolstered by therapy, of course...)
I'm not cultivating any romantic entanglements...
I'm not feeling that familiar urgency to find a new companion...
I don't need anyone to play with...
Or anyone to play games with me...
It's now about healing...
Exploring my emotions without always having the need to put them into words...
Accepting that some things don't need to be explained,
And some things are impossible to symbolically represent...
I exist...
For the moment, that is enough...