When the universe was formed,
She looked at me
As if I were pure magic...
Saw me as pure original light...
Like staring into the sun...
I basked in that apparent worship...
Let it seduce me...
Let it change me
From pure consciousness
To solid matter...
From the original chaos of the void
Into stars
And then planets
And then flesh and blood and bone...
I didn't notice
How the light slowed its vibration
From energy to matter,
It seemed so gradual...
So comforting a thought...
That grain of sand
Painted with layer after layer
Of iridescent mother of pearl...
So common...
So precious...
Like slipping your foot into warm slippers
On a cool morning...
Priceless...
The expansion, however,
Was not so gradual as it seemed...
A billion years was just a moment in time...
My senses were simply affected
By the addicting substance
Of her apparent need...
Constant acceleration...
Life, death, and explosions...
Roiling turmoil deep inside of her...
I was no longer gazed upon
As a magical and shining object...
That word bears repeating,
Object...
Eventually, I was seen as the abyss...
A soulless void
Bearing the full weight of her trespasses
Against herself...
A projection of her empty longing...
I thought back to the beginning,
Reminisced,
And only then realized
That nothing was real...
Seduced by a hologram...
Encoded into it like a virus...
The moon chasing the sun...
Hung by my feet from that tree,
It's branches in my flesh between
Achilles tendon and distal fibula...
Millenia passed in contemplation...
Liquid iron stinging my eyes blind...
She was such a good performer...
Such a convincing actor...
Bear-trap jagged jaws
Hidden beneath the satin slip covers...
How did I find myself here,
Floating in outer space,
A frozen, dense mass,
When before all of this
I was simply consciousness at rest?
Massless potential energy,
Peaceful and formless...
No physics and no rules...
Home...
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