It's Not About Multidimensional Entities Manifesting as Clowns

 

I have unintentionally hurt people.
Some people have unintentionally hurt me.
I have intentionally hurt people.
Some have intentionally hurt me.
I'm sure all parties involved
Labeled it as
"Self defense."
Emotional hurt.
We do what we feel
We have to
To survive.
We distance ourselves
From potential
Sources of pain.
Some, like myself,
Isolate ourselves,
Since human entanglements 
Often lead to 
Pain.
I'm not good at
Keeping up with friends
Or family...
Scar tissue
Has made it hard
To motivate
To reach out.
There are some people,
However, 
That I have intentionally
Cut off...
Gray rock, block, delete,...
I get anxious 
Around other people's emotions,
Because I get anxious
Around my own...
I get anxious
About other people's problems
Because I feel sometimes
Overwhelmed by my own...
I know about projection,
And I try not to do it,
But it's not always easy...
I'm often suspicious,
And sometimes fearful.
Depression and anxiety
Can be
Cement around your feet
With a constant feeling
That the water is too deep,
Rising too quickly,
And full of hungry, toothy fishes...
Beasts with lights in the dark
Designed to draw you close
For ease of consumption...
Lights in the darkness,
They can't be trusted...
Don't follow the light,
As the original Poltergeist movie advised...
Lights in the dark
Can be predatory...
Lights in the dark
Are not always what they seem...
I have been
That light in the dark,
So I know this to be true...
I have been bruised and wounded
By those
Lights in the dark,
And I have bruised others.
We all float down here.
You'll float, too.